lots of eyes looking at me...

yesterday...went for the cf which is christian fellowship in sunway...(recommended by eliza...invited by Eliza & melody...)
actually...the feeling at there is not too bad...they actually impressed me with all their politeness...(miss shanta muz have taught them well...)
somehow...at the KG...(forgotten what's the full name of it...)
split into groups...and then...a question asked...who's not christian here...so many eyes looking at me...=.=lll
at that moment...apparently quite beh song...dont know whether i think too much...but i felt a little bit discriminated(eventhough they din say they discriminate me...who will actually so stupid to tell ppl he/she discriminate that individual)...but...nevermind...coz...i dont think they mean any harm...
discuss something...chat...abit about bible,not too bad...but not too good oso la...juz in between...
perhaps will go again...depends la...(if friend(s) invite...then go lor...)

lastly, wanna apologise...for my ignorance...coz...i really seldom pray...for myself and others...so...my knowledge about that...really pathetic...

february summary...

du du du du...du du...du du du du....du du du du du...
erm...suddenly realise...i need to do lots of things...lots of things waiting for me to do them...=.=lll
those things...looks like waiting for me only...others cannot do for me...such as...study...taking good care of myself(whether i getting old...or i juz getting weaker...) like fall sick easily...
now...actually i really wish to go to a place...a place where no ppl recognise me...and i dont recognise them...that's the place...i wish i am there now...doing nothing...juz sit still under a shady tree...looking at my watch, inspecting the time passess 1 second by 1 second, 1 minute by 1 minute, juz doing nothing but wasting time...
for me...i think this is the life style that even angel will be jealous(nearly impossible to live like that everyday...) dont know whether i got nothing better to do...or maybe broken inside...
this month...like i done nothing...but seems extremely tired...
actually what happened???
1) chinese new year...
2) a friend's birthday
3) a friend's birthday
4) Know miss g10's name...(abnormal gain)
5) know some other new friends initially from other group
6) irritate cf a little bit...
7) irritate leng zhong a little bit...(treat it as normal loss??)

Last thing...i think i need to do but i havent...which is...need to maintain a certain distance with ppl...(thanks to allison's reminder...)

shining light bulb on top my head!!

These few days...dont know why...i keep trying my best to do things that i normally do...yet cannot do well...but on the things that i usually dont like to do...i can do them smoothly...is this a gift or a punishment?
For example la(jayan): things i dont like...which is study...especially comes to audit...partly cannot understand partly is audit totally helps ppl sleeps well...but these few days...i suddenly can understand those stuff in text book...and suddenly cant fall asleep when i try to study audit...=.=lll(is it bad for health?)
Follow me or not(jayan again...miss him??dont know??)things i like to do...which is make ppl laugh or smile or cheer ppl up...i dont think i am doing quite good these few days...not because of i very down or what...or maybe i juz too tired or get sick of doing that.
Talk about the shinning light bulb on top of my head, i still remember my t9 lecturer...miss joyce said that...rubbing the white board(dont use the word rub la+.=lll) erasing the white board really drains her strength...and asked us to invent something which can clean the white board efficiently and effectly(she says:"if u all can get me one...i'll make sure sunway college buy from u)...well...i think i got the idea...
apparently...not only idea...suddenly got the inspiration...and designed a special type of cleaning the white board...with some help of formal physic knowledge...(dont know whether it works...)
erm...i think i'll make the thing according to the design one day...one day la...
design and inventing...not the things i like...but...i think somethings gone wrong with me...